Super Update!

A lot has happened lately, some bad, some good and some just doesn't fit anywhere on that spectrum! Cody no longer works for Smith's, and so we lost the van and our phone service and all this happened within a week! The day after Cody stopped working for Smith's he started working for the military! Currently it's only temporary, but we hope to find something permanent from it. 

The military job is a great change for us. Cody is happier with his work, he's less grumpy and we have more time together. He actually spent the entire day fixing his motorcycle with David yesterday, and David enjoyed spending so much time with his Daddy. Cody works bizarre hours during the week, but he comes home for three days per weekend and it give us a chance to be a family. :) Good stuff. It also gives me a chance to work on me!

Recently I found out I gained 20 pounds out of nowhere. With my insulin levels being too high and my omega-3 being dangerously low, my blood pressure is in danger again. My depression is worsening from it as well. But as of last week, when Cody began to lose some of his stress and anger, it was easier for us to start doing things as a family, which meant going for walks every day. We've been walking to the library, friends houses, the Ranches, all over. I have also been drinking a lot less soda and taking Iron and Fish Oil with Omega-3 every day. It's all helping, even with my energy levels! 

Walking to the library means David gets to pick out his own books, he LOVES reading and us reading to him. So whenever we go to the library he gets excited and is very particular in which books we bring home. He searches the whole time we are there for the perfect ones. He's been having night terrors, though and it kind of worries me. Hopefully they won't last forever though. 

With all the changes lately has come another: I am writing again!!! I have started the first in a series I have plans for, and I am even planning on doing NaNoWriMo!!! NaNoWriMo is National Novel Writing Month, where you spend the entire month with a community of people doing the same thing; trying to write a 50,000 word novel. It doesn't have to be perfect, it just has to be more than 50k worth of more than one word over and over again! I am super excited for it, but I need to work on my average words per day. 

I have a few people that are pushing me with my novels, and I am SUPER grateful to them! They are so amazing for sticking by me and sticking me to my guns. I am glad I have friends like them. I still miss some of the friends I have lost over the years, but I don't know what to do to fix things between us all. But these friends helping me are who I have realized are the best friends anyone could every ask for. You guys know who you are! 

Also, I will be starting an Author's Blog, where I will update on my word progress, nanowrimo stuff, write about different things and just keep trucking with my writing. I think (hope) that's it for now, but I will keep you all posted! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! 

~Mandar~

Blast From the Past

Have you ever realized how many friends you "used" to have? Sit at home, remembering "back in the day", or "when everything was awesome"? Been thinking about that a lot lately. I've realized something else, you never keep the friends you once had. You only grow up with a few of them... All of the rest are lost in stupid things, and usually never end up being friends again. It's not awesome. 

High school was hell for me. Worst time of my life. But there were a few people (in each highschool I went to) that turned it into something better. Of the three people in that picture with me, only one and I are still on speaking terms. Does that mean that only 1 in 3 friends will be your friend later on?? If that's the case, what's the point? 

Stupid things happen. People say stupid things, do stupid things, but it never changes what we once were; friends. And whether we go our separate ways or stay friends, the memories will always be there. What we did for each other, what we did together as friends. None of that will ever change, but it seems none of it will ever happen again either. Maybe one day friends will be more permanent... Maybe not. No one can tell. :(

Hustle Hustle!

Things have been somewhat crazy lately! Between multiple trips to Arizona to scope out the area, moving my mom to Arizona within two days and now we are packing and looking at moving within the next few weeks ourselves, we haven't had much time to just hang around haha! It's super exciting!

Today I will be getting a cyst removed from my finger, how exciting! The doctor is super funny and at one point actually said he'd "take a whack at it" and promptly looked horrified that he's said it haha!

This week will consist of trying to get things done one handed lol! But with my husbands help and the help of all my friends I will get what I need done! =D

On a random aide note we finally got the tempurpedic style king size bed I've always wanted haha! now I sleep like a rock and don't toss and turn as much! And David loves trying to climb the bed, since its twice as tall as him!

He started nursery at church recently and apparently loves hanging out with all the kids and the toys. He's so cute! He has so many new words and games and antics! He's even saying Robbie now lol! Well that's all for now! =)

Well, I see I haven't managed to keep up with this whole blogging thing after all! Lately things have been a little crazy here. I have been working on my crocheting skills, which have gotten much better than they used to be! I am now crocheting scrunchies, beanies, wrist warmers, and working on an afghan! It's not much but it's definitely something to do!

Christmas, Thanksgiving and New Years was really boring this year, and kind of depressing. All of my family has scattered through the U.S. lately, and I am left with very few of them here. Most of my friends either think I have become the devil for some reason, or are moving further away from me than they already are with me perched up here on my ass-backwards cold mountain. But it just leaves me to think about how everything changes, and I am bad with change still. 

David is growing up WAY too fast. He is now 17 months old, walking, talking, giggling, and learning way too many things. He already knows how to open the gate at the top of the stairs, he knows how to weasel things out of people, and apparently knows how to program things onto my computer. He is wearing 24 month clothes, almost too big for most of his jammies, but is only about 25 lbs. in weight... weird. His favorite color is red, and he likes to scoot around on the giant firetruck we got him for Christmas! 

There is a silver lining to all my woes and worries, (yes there are many) however. We are moving to Arizona! Utah is just too cold, depressing and stuffy for me. We are looking into options for where exactly to go, but we will be going once we can get things transferred! So much excitement! Gonna be a busy year for us for sure! 

Hubby is Home!

Wow, I guess I totally spaced on these blogs! My hubby is home and we are so much happier with him here! Things have been rocky for the past little while, but they are definitely looking up again! We've been getting things back on track, working on little random projects and are trying to be optimistic about the future plans we have.

The trip to pick up Cody went well, we actually had a lot of fun on our way back from Oklahoma. We went to a few places like the Amarillo zoo and Cline's Corners. Then we stopped in St. George to see Cody's mom and had a blast there as well!

We are living back with the inlaws again, and I must say, we have our ups and downs and our little fights and irritations, but Cody and I feel we need to be here. We both feel something is keeping us here for a reason, and we also feel there may be some big changes in our little family soon. So we are bunkering down for whatever is coming our way. Either way we know its something exciting!

Cody has been encouraging me to continue with my writing, but something seems to be blocking me. But he still keeps pushing. He also tries to help me think through things to write. When he first got home, things were harder than ever, but now we are working things out and working to try and make any future deployments easier on all of us. Mostly we try to spend time together, take lots of pictures and make sure Mr. Baby knows his Daddy very well.

This week we are working on my health, David's allergy to dairy and Cody's sleeping schedule to help us all get back on track. I get to make doctors appointments for all kinds of stuff! Excitement! Well, hopefully I will start keeping up with this again! Then, if Cody is sent anywhere, he will be able to read these whenever possible and know he's loved!!!

Day 44

I am officially sick of this separation. At this point I don't care what he's doing for us, I want him to COME HOME. His son is starting to call other people dadda and wants nothing to do with me. When I try to hold him or play with him he reaches for his Auntie... Boy I feel loved... 


I have a new job, working in a warehouse on an assembly line. It's a good job, gives me something to do I guess. I have to be up at 4am to be there on time tomorrow. Yay. I'm not in the mood to write anymore, so this is it.

Days 39-43

Wow have I lagged on my blogs! I promise I will start keeping up again from now on!!! Not much has really happened the last five days. Seriously, I have been driving back to my house to get the mail and exercising and that is about it. 

Today we took Tiny baby to the doctor and found he has a stomach bug and severely dry skin, and that his ears are healing from his infection. Cody called last night for almost a half hour and we just talked about pretty much anything we could think of. He has been going to church and is thinking about getting the priesthood again!! WOOT! 

I tried to resend him some stuff today but wouldn't you know it, the dang post office was closed due to "technical issues". What the heck?! Tiny Baby was super grumpy today, and he had trouble going down to bed tonight being so sickly and grumpy. And we are putting super lotion on him for his skin. 

We have begun the planning for the trip to see Cody, and I start a new job tomorrow! It's temporary, which is spectacular since I will need like two weeks off. But that's more money I can put away for the trip!!! 

I will be heading to bed soon, so I will keep this one short. Cody we love you!!! 

Days 37-38

It has been so busy lately, we haven't had much time to do anything!! We came to stay at my in-laws because the pipes are so bad and the one in my room is rusted through and leaking so my room STINKS. So yesterday we packed up some stuff and came to stay here. Tori and I went to the D.I. and got Tiny Baby some really cute clothes!! We got one of Cody's checks so I was able to pay a majority of the bills, FINALLY!!! Thank goodness. By the time we got home, we were all three exhausted.


Tori and I got some movies to hang out and watch together. We got "Horrible Bosses", "Happy Feet Two", "Dolphin Tale", "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo", and "The Muppets". So far we have watched the "Dolphin Tale" one, and I watched "The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo" before going to bed last night. 


Today, Tori and I went back to our house and cleaned up as much as we could while Grams watched the baby. We have to get it all cleaned up for when the Health Inspector gets called in. We also took pictures of all the crappiness and even got a video of the sink backing up on itself! It was so nasty we had to get gloves to clean it out. 


Then we picked up Shane and Shae from work before we went home, ate some dinner and put the little man to bed. OH we also mailed Cody about 60 pictures!! HAHA!!!


Take THAT Cody!!! We love you baby!!! 

Day 36

We had a pretty adventurous day today! Tiny Baby and I both slept (after a rough night) until about 9am, and once we awoke, I again stalked out mailman. Mr. Mailman doesn't know he has such an avid fan... I should make him cookies one day, to thank him with my irritating way of making him pull a letter out of my mailbox every morning addressed to the same exact address, every day but Sunday haha! 


So after I stalked the mailman and got my short little letter from Cody, I ran downstairs to sit in Tiny Baby's room and read it to him. He sent us a form with his marksman scores, and he did pretty damn good! I think he only missed two shots out of the whole thing, and passed everything on it. He's eating better than I am, go figure. 


So I got Tiny Baby ready for the day, and then he decided to take a nap after playing on the floor in his room for awhile. While I waited for him to wake up from his nap, I decided I was going to take him to the park!! So when he woke up, we got ready and headed for Eagle Mountain, where we picked up his Auntie Tori, and Mommy had some yummy cake! 


We finally left for the park, but the one we wanted to go to was packed so we went to the one in Lehi because it had baby swings! Tiny Baby was so cute in his swing! And when we put him on the weird little slide thing, he started climbing the stairs!!! O.o That was new. After taking lots of fun pictures, and Tiny Baby throwing up on us, we went and got Papa Murphy's for dinner, and headed back to Grams' house. 


We had dinner and watched The Voice, which was sort of entertaining. And Tiny Baby loves his jello and puffs!! So that's basically what he had for dinner. After dinner, Auntie Tori brought him downstairs to see Grampy, and when she was coming back up the stairs, let Tiny Baby climb up them! Boy did he find THAT amusing!! He was also grumpy EVERY time we put him in his carseat! Goodness did he get mad...


When I finally left for home, I stopped by mom's and picked up the stroller so I would have it in the jeep for when I need it anywhere. We barely made it to the gas station so we could make it home, and then when we got home, no one was here. So now I am all paranoid. Tiny Baby went right to sleep, and I found a picture of Cody on the Bravo page! It made me cry. Now I am going to finish my letter to Cody and go to bed!!




36 days until we leave to come see you Cody!!! 

Days 33-35

It's been a hectic couple of days so I haven't been able to post for them. So Friday I babysat all night for the sweetest little girl, and made a good payment off it. So now I have some gas money. We FINALLY figured out what was wrong with Cody's checks not coming in! We got a phone call AND a letter from Cody on Saturday at the same time! And today was an adventure. 


So what was wrong with Cody's check was that their payroll system had our account number, but it was MISSING a number. So all I had to do was call the bank and give them both numbers, and they said they'd reroute the checks to my account. So by Tuesday we should be homefree!!! Huzzah!


Then Friday night I babysat all night, hanging out with the cutest sweetest little girl! She kept sharing cookies with me! Tori and Grams came and got the baby because I didn't have the playpen for the baby. So when I got done at 7:30 in the morning they offered to keep Tiny Baby while I slept for the day, and I could come have dinner with them and pick up Tiny Baby. 


So I got home, threw on some comfy clothes and DOVE into my bed, I was SO tired. I slept for about 4 hours, when around 12:30 a phone number calls that I've never seen before and wakes me up. I look at it, don't know it and click ignore. Well it immediately calls back. So I stared at my phone for a few seconds and said okay FINE. So I answered and it was CODY! 


That phone call threw me so out of whack its ridiculous. I couldn't hear half of what he was saying, and he wasn't saying much anyway, he seemed distant... And I felt bad because the baby wasn't there. So that phone call made my Sunday VERY boring. But I was glad to hear his voice... He says he's doing okay and feels better and that he got a few of your letters, and will write when he can. 


Anyway, so last night I picked up the baby and had dinner at Grams house. Tori and I made a trip to the store for snacks, too. Then on the way home we stopped for more snacks. Twice. -.- Yep. So we finally got home and went to bed. We got up early in the morning, after a night of NO sleep for me, and went to Home Depot for a board so dad could make a gate across the top of the stairs, and stopped at Smith's for some stuff for dinner. We got to their house, sat around for a bit then went to church.


Church was boring, as it always is for me. But I tried to pay attention and not fall asleep. The baby was cranky because he hadn't had his nap, and so we took him back to Grams after sacrament was over. This is about the time Tori comes up the stairs from changing out of her skirt, and faceplants UP the stairs. It was pretty funny! Then an hour and a half later she went to get Grams, and coming up the porch she fell UP the stairs again! Poor Tori... As klutzy as her sister in law... 


We had a delicious dinner of beef roast, mashed potatoes, gravy, HUGE (butt-shaped) rolls and jello! The baby ate some of all of it and ate enough for his own dinner! I didn't need to mush it all, he knows how to take little pieces and eat them himself. He also started walking his walker around the room today. So far it is the only way he walks forward without us helping him. He also konked his nogging, turning around too fast he fell over and plopped straight down onto his back and bounced his head off grams wood floor. Boy he did not like that. No worries though, floor's fine, Tiny Baby is perfectly okay. He also got his foot stuck in the couch. He's a strange little baby.


After dinner, Tori and I cleaned up the kitchen, and then Tori bathed Tiny Baby. I ran away for home soon after to put baby into bed and to be by myself... And that's pretty much it!!! 


CODY!!! We miss you!

Day 32

Have you ever had a dream that didn't really make sense, but upset you nonetheless? Well that's how my day started. Tiny Baby let me sleep in late, too. He's getting so big! We got a letter from Cody, today. And Tiny Baby had a very good day today. 

Tiny Baby has been growing so fast, almost too fast for his Mommy. He now pulls himself up and wanders around, holding onto things as he goes, and likes to try and get into his garbage pail while he's at it. He knocks something out of a container and picks stuff up and puts it back in. He has also started using the 'kuh' sound, and picks things up between his forefinger and thumb. Tiny Baby loves his puffs! He has now had the apple, sweet potato and banana flavors. He thought the banana was weird at first. 

He's getting faster about eating, he doesn't lollygag as much anymore, he's straight to business! And he holds himself up in the tub, so we don't need the little chair thing anymore, but i let him sit in it with the rail down so he can move around a little more. 

I spent most of the day writing to Cody, as I always do. His letter was short, because he got 11 letters on Monday from the mail backing up over Easter break. So it left him little time to write haha! Apparently he has been going to church every Sunday and wants to tell me all about it, but didn't have time. So he had me write him a letter full of questions for him to answer, and send back to me. So I did! 

I need to start getting ready for the trip, so hopefully Cody's money comes in soon so I can get the car fixed up and ready. It has an oil leak and needs tires and windshield wipers. I'm going to get it trip inspected too. I have found that the baby requires a bigger suitcase than I do for this trip... It's kind of funny how much you need for one little baby for a week long trip. 

There's a possibility we will get to spend the weekend with Cody after he reaches Fort Sill, so we will keep everyone updated about that. It'd be expensive but worth it. We are really excited, even though we still have a little over a month to go. He is writing as much as he can when he has time, and it means a lot to us. Hopefully he'll be able to get his computer and stuff for AIT. 

I hope this month flies by for us... 

Day 31

Day 31 was a bit stressful, but not too terribly bad. We got our foodstamps today so I was able to go get some groceries and water. Tiny Baby feels better, he's been giggly all day. I'm pretty tired now.


Grocery shopping was kind of hard, seeing as its the first time ive been to the store since Cody left, it hurt a little. But I made it through, because we needed food, water and a few things for Cody's care package. We finally got the package put together and sent it off to him. Hopefully the phone doesn't break in the box, haha. I hope he gets it soon. 


Tiny Baby seems to be feeling a lot better today. He was up and playing, giggling at everything, but he was still a little clingy. He loves to stand up in his crib and scream and holler at me. It's actually cute. 


I didn't get a letter from cody today, or the past few days. But he wasn't able to send anything for four days, so I am not worried. Just a little bummed is all. Hoping I'll get one tomorrow. 


Cody we love you baby! 

Day 30

Well, today wasn't half bad. I got a lot done around the house, Tiny Baby was feeling better, and we get to keep our place! YAY!!! The landlord received the rent money and now all we have to do is make the payment for the late fees, and she is going to give us a paper saying she is voiding the eviction. As well as a receipt. So we get to stay in the house! 


Tiny Baby was up and all over the place today. Obviously he feels much better. He was playing with his toys, took his naps, and even ate his dinner tonight! Now he is sound asleep in his bed, not a peep! He was so funny when he was eating his dinner, I would make noises whenever I gave him a bite and he'd just laugh like it was the funniest thing on the planet! 


We got a lot of stuff organized and kind of unpacked today. I sorted it all into specific boxes so I could arrange it around the house easier. Our house is still a disaster, though. Working on it as hard as I can. It's driving me nuts! Urgh. 


YAY! We can get groceries today!!! Water, food, YUM!!! Then I shall feel better! 


No letter today, but Cody wasn't able to send any for the last few days because of Easter, so it's understandable. I miss him. I have been working on a package to send him that I will hopefully send him tomorrow. We need to send him some pictures. I've been slacking on the pictures, haha. 


Well, that's pretty much it for today, not much going on on this end. Cody WE MISS YOU!!! <3

Day 29

WELL. Today has been OH so exciting! Took the baby to the doctor, and he had a temperature of about 101F throughout most of the day. We found out he has a bad cold and an ear infection in his right ear, and one starting in his left. So we got antibiotics for him, amoxicillin. Pink stuff. Yum. So Tiny Baby was clingy and sad all day long. 


We went to Grams house and hung out there for the day, where we sat in the swing on the porch, and he almost immediately fell asleep. Poor guy kept doing that all day. One minute he was awake and the next he'd be konked out on my shoulder. We are giving him plenty of fluids and keeping him clean, happy and comfortable. He will be better soon, I'm sure. 


So our landlord has given us an eviction notice. No written warning notice as it says in our contract and per law. Of course. She told us we could pay it and have the eviction dropped, but it does not say that in the notice she gave us, so unless she gives us something in writing saying that's the case, she's not going to see a dime, because I am tired of being screwed over. There is mold in the laundry room that she had painted over, she refuses to fix the plumbing that she never bothered to tell us had a problem, but we found out through the previous tenants that she is a slum lord that refuses to fix anything. So yeah, needless to say I am calling a health inspector, having everything documented, and going to call the previous tenants. 


So if we do end up getting evicted, we will be moving back in with my inlaws. I am kind of torn about the whole thing. I am more comfortable there whilst Cody is gone, but I wanted him to come back home to a nice, cleaned up, put together apartment. But that is starting to look like it isn't going to happen. It makes me a little sad faced... 


Daddy came and drove me and Tiny Baby home, and when I got home, I sent Shane out to get me a sweet tea, haha. It was quite funny actually. I am sending Cody a package tomorrow, with some things he asked me for. I hope I can sleep as well as Tiny Baby is sleeping tonight. Might not, seeing as all this crap has given me a headache.


Cody is having a rough time, he keeps doubting himself. So if everyone that has his address could write him a letter and tell him to stop it, that would be awesome! He really needs a boost. And thanks to everyone that has been sending him letters and helpful stuff!!! He really appreciates it and wants me to tell you all that you are awesome!! 


Cody, to YOU, I hope you know we all love you and are excited for you to make it through! 43 days to go baby!!! And then I shall be there to see you!!! 

Day 28

Today. Oh lord, today... So I spent the night at my mom's house, of course not getting to bed until late in the night, early morning. I go to bed, and the baby has spiked a good fever. So I was up most of the night with him, trying to make him feel better. I'm glad he was in the room with me, so he knew I was there, it seemed to help when he would look up and I would be laying right there. 


We woke up early in the morning and did the whole Easter thing, the kids all loved their baskets, and Tiny Baby definitely enjoyed his, thanks to a very loving Easter Bunny at my moms house. Once we had finished with searching for the eggs and such, Daddy and I gave Tiny Baby some tylenol, and then Tiny Baby and I both took a good two hour nap. HOLY THANKFULNESS. I really needed that nap. 


When I woke up and realized Daddy had done all the Easter cooking by himself, I felt bad for falling asleep. But boy was that food delicious! I ate some throughout the day... haha. Then Daddy and I went to see the bishop, and talked with him. He seemed kind of scary, but was okay. David LOVED the ride in the truck, with the windows down and the warm air blowing all around him. He fell asleep almost as soon as we started doing over 40 mph. He was so cute! Last night and whenever he was asleep today, he would hum and talk in his sleep. 


We gave him some more tylenol later in the day when his fever went up again. I am taking him to the doctor hopefully tomorrow. 


After we got home, I waited and waited for Cody's Sunday phone call, and by 4:30 pm, I was panicking, thinking he wasn't going to call, because he only had about 2 and 1/2 hours until lights out, and then he wouldn't be able to call. But he did! At 5:09 we got our call from Cody, and he had extra time to talk today! I was so happy to hear his voice. Poor Tiny Baby was so sick and upset, he made sure his Daddy knew he was right there, listening to him talk to us. 


After the phone call, the kids were all going to try and move the couch. Well, it wouldn't fit down the stairwell, so they were going to put it back where it was. There was all kinds of stuff on the floor where the couch had been, so i had to scoot under the couch with the kids holding it up, and scoot it all out! They tried to smoosh me with the couch of course. Funny stuff. 


Then Tori came over and gave us a gift for the baby, squishy books made of fabric for him to play with! They had been hers and Cody's when they were younger, so they will always be special for Tiny Baby. After that, we got stuff together, and Tori and I came back to my house, and she is spending the night for tonight. 


And now, I am exhausted, and would like to go sleep, and dream of the day Cody gets to come home. So, I know you are asleep now, baby and I hope you dream of us too! Keep up the GREAT work you're doing baby!! 

Day 27

So today was kind of strange. And obnoxious. I couldn't seem to haul my butt out of bed today, and then couldn't get myself going for awhile. Had to force myself to move so I could take care of Tiny Baby.


His cough is still pretty gnarly, but I am still giving him lots of fluids and making sure his humidifier is on. He had some fun making fun of Mommy today. We went to try and leave for my moms so we could hang out here for Easter, but the jeep was dead. So we waited for HOURS for my mom to show up and get us.


When she did, we tried to jump it for an hour, but it wouldn't hold a charge, and the security system started going off again. So its basically boned. So we rode to my moms in her jeep. So then we get to my moms and we get the room cleaned up that I'm staying in for the night. 


I of course have to bang my knee on the bed every time I walk by it and now my knee is bruised and swollen. And I pulled my shoulder again, the injury from me getting hit by a car. We didnt get a chance to color eggs today, but will be doing so tomorrow. Just for funsies and pictures. 


I now have the choice of going to Florida or Arizona on Monday, and I am not sure if I want to go, or where to go if I do. Tomorrow is Easter! And it's Tiny Baby's FIRST Easter! I have to make sure I keep my phone handy to get lots of pictures for his Daddy!! We should get a call from him tomorrow, and we are super excited for that!!! 


I started using Swagbucks yesterday, and its actually kind of fun! With a good amount of swagbucks I can get amazon gift cards!! It's awesome! Well, I had better go to bed, so the phone call hopefully gets here faster!! Goodnight! 


Cody, I love you so so so so so so so so so much!!!! ^.^ 

Day 26

Today went to hell fairly quickly. I woke up and had a good morning with the baby, playing with his toys. Of course when I look out the window, it's gloomy and there's snow everywhere. That dampened my mood. We got a letter from Cody, and that made it a little better, but as the day wore on, things just seemed to fall apart around me. 


Tiny Baby has gotten a pretty bad chest cold, and I may be bringing him in to the doctor. I have managed to catch whatever it is that he has. I keep seeing the baby when he looks at me, and I feel like David realizes his Daddy isn't here, but should be, and he looks at me like I should make him appear and swoosh him around the house like a little superhero. It breaks my heart to wonder what the baby could be thinking about all this. 


I definitely made some mistakes for myself today. Healthwise, emotionally, etc. I need to get back on track. I did manage to get a few loads of laundry going, clean up the bottom of the stairs and the downstairs living room. Watched more Lost, which I really don't know why because it makes NO sense. And I also wrote Cody a novel! Haha! He liked my 8 page letter I sent and so I ended up writing him a ten page one today. (He counts them front and back of a piece of paper is 2 pages) Go me! 


Tiny Baby has been quite the entertainer today, even though he's sick. He played with Mommy while he was in his bouncer, Mommy would play the cat and mouse jump around thing, and he would just giggle away whenever I would pounce the bouncer or his feet. We are going to my mom's for Easter on Sunday, so I hope to get some good pictures to send the hubby. Well, I better finish this up so I can get to bed. Goodnight all! 

Day 25

Today was almost as rough as yesterday, but not quite. Still have no yet received Cody's check, and he needs some stuff, and we need rent. But we are okay so far. Tiny Baby is still sick, but he was feeling better after his nap today. He slept for THREE hours!!! He and I had some fun today, tickling him and him trying to pull my lips off my face. 


This evening, Tiny Baby made his Daddy an Easter present. We stamped his feet and hands on a piece of paper. We hope his Daddy really likes it. Lost is still getting worse and worse, but I can't seem to stop watching it. 


We are still struggling getting rent, but we have a meeting with the bishop on Sunday, so hopefully we can get it taken care of. We miss Cody so much. His letters are making me wonder whether this was the right choice more and more. I hope he is doing okay. We may be able to drive him to Ft. Sill ourselves. It's a long shot, but we can hope. Even one more day with him will make all the difference. 


Tiny Baby and I are going to go to my mom's for Easter and take lots of pictures for his Daddy. I'm going to try easter eggs with him too, see if we can get him to color some without breaking them, haha!  


Well, that's pretty much it for today. We really have boring lives.... Wow. Cody we miss you SO much... 

Day 24

Today was rough. The baby was sick with a cough, a slight fever and some mucusy grossness. So he was grumpy all day and would not stop screaming and yelling at me, no matter what I tried. The money from Cody's check still has not appeared, and the landlord called and apparently threatened to evict us because we are FOUR days late on the rent. O.o REALLY?? She's a slummer anyway. Refuses to fix anything in the house, and then expects me to want to pay her rent for this dump??? Yeah. 


It was hard for me today, Cody's letter made me worry. He's doubting himself and what he is doing. Half of me wants to tell him to quit and come home... Okay more than half. But the other part wants him to succeed, and wants to push him. I miss him so much, and it gives me a headache fighting with myself like this. I want him to see his son, I want to hold him and make dinner for him... 


I cannot get ahold of our bishop no matter what I do. I even wandered the church for half an hour trying to figure out where his office was, and HE WASN'T THERE. URGH. Anyway... Hopefully Cody's check comes in soon so I can pay the damn landlady. Tiny Baby and I might color some easter eggs tomorrow. Pictures will definitely follow!


Cody... When you read this, I want you to know I love you so much, and I support you no matter what you choose to do. 

Day 23

Not much happened today. No letter, no craziness, no excitement. A little bit of stress about money, but it wasn't too bad. I sat around, painting little wooden things all day. I need to get some more, it really takes my mind off things. One of them was a little birdhouse I painted for Cody, I am going to put a picture in the hole of the house, so he can see it. Lost is getting kind of annoying. 

Tiny Baby was fussy and sick all day, didn't want to nap, and he kept falling asleep in his bouncer. That was literally all we did all day. I am calm for the most part and the baby is in bed, sleeping like a little angel. His night terrors seem to be getting pretty bad, and it's like he doesn't want to be alone. So I try to do what I can for him. We have to stick together. 

Still working on getting things fixed and together before we go see Cody, and I am really excited for it. I'm pretty sure Tiny Man and Tori are too. 

Today, Tiny Baby was screaming at me as I laid him in his bed, after he threw up. So I was going to get him some pedialyte, and he started hollering at me, so I told him "I'll be right back keep your pants on!" And when I came back downstairs with his drink, the little bugger was taking his pants off!!! He's such a little smartass, just like his Mommy!!! 

I'm tired, so I am going to cut this one short, especially since there isn't much to say. We love our Cody, and hope he is doing well. WE LOVE YOU BABY!!! <3